I must have around a dozen print-on-demand books but that's not much. I love the service but wish I was a better author. My friend tells me its a craft not a skill. I have written since JR high school and was an avid reader throughout high school. I can't think of a time when I was younger that I had not been reading.

Maybe when I wasn't playing videogames.

Lately, I have been having trouble cracking open a book or struggle to remember important conversations I've had with people in the past. I worry that this is a sign of my illness catching up with me. You see, I was diagnosed in with Schizophrenia or Schizoaffective Disorder in 2005. Prior to that I had Major Depression in 2000.

I feel that my cognitive skills are going on me along with my memory. I do not know the cause of which but a psychiatrist confirmed that it is part of my illness I have. In the past I journalled all the time. Now, at the very young age of 35, I a fear losing my marbles.

So I tossed together those dozen print on demand books. I'm not trying to sell them.

Just saying, cherish your mind at all costs. You may, like my mother who is in 70s who is battle dementia and myself who has no real clue why he has this illness of the mind, find you're not as sharp as you used to be. Use your wits while you've got them. Don't waste time thinking negative thoughts of yourself or others and do not criticize.

Sharpen those wits, keep your mind & body & spirit healthy. And "Rage, Rage, Rage Against the Dying of the Light!"